Martin, and tipped waiters hundred-dollar bills, and one day, in Anguilla, decamped for hours with Colt at a beach shack, musing on island life, listening to Bob Marley and drinking beer. Who braved hurricanes to save sea turtles in St. Papa took Colt on a cattle drive once, guiding a herd from Utah to Colorado, and later Colt, weighing his whole life, filled pages of his journal with story after story about the man who taught him to trust himself. On PapaвЂ™s ranch in Aspen, Colt rode horses, fired guns and camped under the stars. And he loved the man he called вЂњPapaвЂќ-Boyd Jefferies, the father of BetsyвЂ™s first husband. He loved In-N-Out, always ordering fries, a Coke and the off-menu вЂњ3x3вЂќ burger. He loved animals, especially Poncho the family beagle. In a journal he began writing during his last few months alive, Colt said he believed that he wasnвЂ™t addicted to any substance in particular, but to what any given drug might provide him: вЂњEscape.вЂќД¬olt had been a happy kid with a big heart one who loved hard-вЂњso passionate,вЂќ says his older sister, Carrera. Specific traumas and feelings that you donвЂ™t want to talk about until you get the strength.вЂќ Much of it came down to one thing: вЂњpain,вЂќ says a friend from that program. He was four months into a five-month program where a reported 64% of graduates stay sober, and he believed he finally had a sense of what caused his addiction, and why it was so damn hard to stay clean.

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